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woooo. i think my last blog entry was two days ago hor? hmm. i also kinda forgot what i did for these few days liao. i only remember myself reading tammi's blog then nothing else liao. haha. =X


today's bh test. i think i can pass it lar. but cant really pass that good. cause' i didnt really read the sentence properly ma. then wasted 2 marks lehs. the mcq arh. hardcore arh! never mind lor. then the saq. i only managed to remember 2 words of an answer lor. then i just wrote the 2 words. hahahahha. but i hope can get another half mark la. =D


alright. then just now came out of the lift, saw this cute guy lar. haha. but dont anyhow think lar. i guess he's attached liao. haha. if anyone of you are thinking how this cute guy comes about, go becca de blog read bah. its a long long story. =))


just reached home after school. darling pon work again! say he sick again! very clever! then i said i wanna go and do my eyebrow. ho dont let me leh. he said wait till next month, then he bring me go the japanese one. =.= actually i wanna try the missha de leh. but no one does it before, so i dont really dare to try lar. i scared they make not nice de. =X


think im going out later bah. so sian. my eyes so itchy. anyway, cow de mascara. ROCKS man. made my alshes soooooo long. plus my volume de. damn nice can?! if i put another layer for the curl de, then i no need to kiap kiap liao lor? then ji tao can curl liao. eh, still got 1 more variety. but i forgot what is it liao. but i think arh, i were to put all the mascarsa available arh, there will be TWO possibilities. they are:

1. my lashes will be DAMN NICE!

2. my lashes will all drop and become botak. =\


muahahahah. now im going to get new foundation lor. my girls say its tooooo white for me. haha. then made my face so fake laidat. EH! fake BUT dolly right? right right? haha. kidding lar. and pkeas! STOP TALKING ABOUT MY NEH NEH LIAO LEH. i damn paisae leh. omg. i know i got small neh neh lar. but its NOT TOTALLY dont have anything what. awww. sobs. i still have to accept the fact that im having SMALL TITS. =(( cheer me up leh. awwws.


SOBS.


alright. think i go shower le. going out! woohoo. love you girls. jessie lock, please cheer up. i love you! this friday i will confirm with you can? cus i also paisae lar. haha. =D muahs muahs.


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alright! im back home already! went to jp with darling. he bought a new shirt lar. i find it damn GAY and ghinnah lor. then he complained that my foundation is too white liao. my girls also complain the same thing. so he bo bian, he went to buy the new one for me. abit darker shade de. i find it quite nice. haha. then what about my old one then? throw away arh? hmm. i know! arbo when at night go out then use lor. haha. dont wanna waste it. =D


just played audition with becca. haha. she pro lar. but her memory cannot make it. =X but its ok lar. superstar is coming up! woots! me so hungry. i just drank bubble tea, ate mos burger. im still hungry. omg. haha. camwhored in jp toilet for awhile just now. then made darling waited outside for me till he pissed off. take them liao also not nice de. take also waste time. haha.


anyway, here something for you guys to hear, and i might need you all to be my listening ears. thanks alot! there's this guy, he is NOT related to me in any way right now. we have not been talking for more than 4 months at least, and just recently, he emailed me.


so, whats the purpose of him emailing me then? he said it was to clarify things between me and him. but the thing is, we are not even together, and he thought he can control my life now?


BAH!


when his first email, he said he wanna clarify some stuffs, im fine with it. then he emailed the 2nd letter. what i read wasnt what he CLAIMED to be. all are insults and indirect insults. he insult on my everything and anything he know about me. told me to take his insults to be good and follow them.


WHAT THE FUCK?!


then i told him, you are not my anything. please stop being sucha jerk.


he then replied, even my friends also very suck. then he said, if i dont give my this goddamn attitude changed, he got nothing to say. then be nothing to say! who are you to insult me in the first place? we havent been talking for so long, and you are here to "clarify" things with me?


oh my. didnt know you're sucha pathetic ass. trying to seek attention eh? dont try. i wont give you any attention. i will just brush you aside, maybe tell 1 or 2 of my friends and thats it! i wont be pissed off with you. cause' why? cause' you're sucha attention seeker! wow.


maybe retarded? dont understand what i meant by "dont contact each other". is it? weehee. then. why not go hide yourself to one tiny little corner and fuck yourself? what air you're breathing now?


SINGAPORE AIR! ( i must thank "anonymous" for teaching me this terrific definition of singapore air. haha.)


then? get a life! stop being sucha mummy boy and listen to your fucked up mother as if you're her dog. oh no. you're a kid. no wonder. its ok with it. BUT! what is the purpose of your mum giving birth to you? she wants you to be smart and nice towards people! and not to email people and insult them as if they are you're kids! get this right and straight boy.


alright. i hope things will be fine. lets see if anymore spam mails i will receive. hmm.


CHILLS !

i was camwhoring remember ? haas.

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alright. another segment. maybe im wrong, or im right. but my intuition is never wrong. its different feelings. maybe you're going through the same thing too? i dont know. when we are together for the first 3 months, i admire this guy. he is not a very bad one lar. but i can see he treat his gf very nice de.

then i realised its just an infatuation and simply a pathetic crush. i think i roughly know nothing is going to work out. but when i thought of you, i had the feeling that i cant break up with you. cause' i simply love you. there's no way i can ditch you because of another person. you're someone whom i cannot resist. he is someone whom i can hack care.

you said you're a playboy for a time being. maybe you're just trying to tease the other girls or wanna get to know more girls and feel popular. the trust isnt there. i tried many many ways to force myself to trust you again. upteen times i have been thinking if only, if only and still if only.

you said you cant live without me. the bad thing is i cant see you doing anything that prove me that you need me. but now, i guess everything is over. im not crying anymore. the trust is coming back again. please dont take it for granted anymore. its really hurting me. and you perhaps? teeheehee.

i love you. 040905. smuacks.