BYE~

I'VE MOVED.

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This is Love.

Maybe things happened too fast.
2 years of relationship with him ended so quickly and I remember knowing him when I was merely 15 years old.
Got together with him when I was 16 and ended everything after my birthday and I think I was so mean to hurt him so much and he was so nice to me and made me even more guilty for what I did.
But afterall, it's called LOVE. Flames became dust, lovers became friends and slowly friends became strangers.
Complete strangers.
No more attachment to each other.
Except the $250.
Gee.
I'm getting crazy over this matter.
I'VE FORGOTTEN HIM.

After a break, finally got over this and found someone who might be better.
At least being responsible for whatever he does.
Let's just take things slowly baby.
I don't wanna rush. I don't want.
We might just end very soon or some time later or we won't even end.
We are going to UK for studies when we graduate with jie and kor.
We promised each other to study real hard, and graduate from ITE.
You told me the same thing as what the previous "he" told me. :
I will be the one to ditch you.
Hopefully we will be happy ever after.
Good luck to me, good luck to us.

Afterall, this is love.

<3

Love, Rybena.

Endnote: Can anyone spare a thought for me? I'm in pain and you guys wanna force me to do things just because you idiots wanna get the marks and the same species of you guys didn' even put in any effort and get the marks. C'on man. I'm ill. Spare a thought for MEEEEEEEE!

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I don't feel good. I don't feel great. I don't feel happy. I'm feeling so unwell, upset, impaired and I'm in pain. =(
Not sure what's wrong with me though. The pain keeps on coming and going. It's driving me crazy and I'm not sure if I'm well to work tonight or not BUT I've gotta go as I'm going to get my pay tonight. I'm so broke and Vince's going overseas.

Geee.

Work was ok last night just that Audrey helped me with my makeup! I love black eyeshadows and smoky eyes. Weee! And I just realised my eyes are huge. HAHA. Anyway there was this group of people which consisted of 11 paxes came into Millions and I was the one who gave them their table. Expecting them to drink liqour or something. This lady asked me if we have ginger ale or not. -___- The man asked me if there's ice water. The rest, they drank beer.

-____________-

Wasted our table and lost our business for at least 3 hours and Vince wasn't that happy about it. Everybody wasn't happy about it. They made big fat noises, loud laughters. Later in the night Vince asked me to challenge 5 10 with Wilson cause' Suying gave up. And I got myself fucking drunk. -__- Baby came so late. Brought me back home and puked on the way back and in the toilet bowl.

Remembered him cleaning up my face, sponging me, took out my lenses for me. So nice of him. And assured me that he will return after sending back the car. Lucky I was fucking asleep. If not I gotta wait till 6 plus this morning, only to see him fucking drunk also. Like, DUH.

Saw him anyhow anyhow to the living room and laid on the couch. -_- He's gonna blame me for not giving him space on the bed again. If he dares lar.

Hahahahhahahaa.

Nothing much to write about. Just that it's time for me to see the doc again for the pain. Cause' it's affecting me, my work, my studies, my mood and my body. I'm getting dizzy. Time to sleep again.

Love, Rybena.

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What have I been doing for the past few days? Somehow I don't remember. I only know I'm hurting again and the crazy doc wanted to gimme 1 week mc. -__- Sure gonna get debarred from exams if I really used that magical paper.

Went to work and got some nags. Anyway it's not because I'm his gf and my performance dropped. I'm still myself. And she herself didn't even stand outside to get customers in, and her status is the same as me. Why does she get more privileges than us? There's no need for me to use his name and thinking that you will not do anything to me. I come to work, I earn my bucks, I do whatever I need to do.

Been quite an unhappy night, and wasn't that focus at work. Boat quay was so quiet last night and we had to close at 2am. =( Not my fault now alright? It's not as if I couldn't get the people in. But it was really quiet what. Duh.

I don't get why parents get so worked up when their own child is ill and couldn't go to school. Oh, so it's my fault for having the pain and my fault for getting myself medicine AND my fault for not going to school which is all the way at SIMEI?!

If it's not because of you, I won't even be studying in nursing now. If it's not because of you, I am not the school's dog and being bullied in school for wearing such fucked up uniform. Maybe I was stupid and not choosing other courses. Dang. Some stupid modules like CDP, TPS which are so irrelevant to nursing and we are paying the school fees for that. That's so idiotic. And we don't do sales when we work in hospitals right? Nincompoop school.

Anyway, enough of the whining. New song, and some pics. Bye.

There's this girl whom I saw in Cafe1 and her legs were so opened and I took a snapshot of it. HAHA.

That's me. =)

Love, Rybena.

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I haven't been online to post my pictures but I will be going back to do my project because of some fucked up group members who claimed that they had already passed me and Reb the simplest job of looking for newspaper articles. I personally don't find it simple and I also don't think there's any need to put up news articles in the project cause' it's not compulsary.

I can't really do my part because of my school and work. So what? You mean we can't work and YOU can? Don't ever call me a racist when you yourself make use of us. SHE didn't do anything in the project and just by saying that she isn't interested means you guys can let her have her marks and let her go just like this?

You wanna be a professionist, who doesn't?

Baby's coming to my place tonight and I don't think I will have the time for him. Because of some people. Shit you.

Saw this cute guy while walking to the pc lab and he was tremendously, vulgarly, fuckingly CUTE. Wanted to get his number. But they saw us running away from them. Geeee. Was so embarrassed. We only have 1 week in school and I wanna see him more and I'm drooling for him. He saw us peeking at him from upstairs and I felt so nice.

;)

One more good reason why I love school. ;P

I hate school because of some people. I love school because of the handsomes and hunks. I hate school because I hate to stay in class and make my arse melt because of the heat. I hate school because of the black chocolates in the class. (milk chocs are not bad actually. They are nice afterall. BUT absolutely not the black ones.)

I love school because it's ending soon and hols are coming and I can work full time during hols! And I felt so goooooooddd!

Right. Enough said. Felicia sucks.

Love, Rybena.

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Was called back for work last Friday. Was so tired already cause' I didn't expect to work that night and promised baby for an outing. So, no choice, baby had to pop down at Millions to look for me that night. Packed many many things too cause' I was going to stay over at baby's place for the night!

Work sucked totally. Jessica and Vince got vulgarly drunk and me and Jeremy were the only one working. Don't wanna mention Ping and Yvonne lar. Both of them were like Siamese Twins and didn't really do what they were supposed to do and I am already used to it. =)

Walked up and down, refilling ice and mixers, taking orders, and only got to catch my breath in the counter with my final tapioca cake and I felt so satisfied. Carried on with the vigorous work and didn't realise time passed so fucking fast! Baby came with Vincent and I was damn happy to see him!

Sat at Zhiwei's table, and slacked for awhile and Jeremy sat in front of me. Told him that I was so shagged out( he nods), but when the moment I saw baby I felt so refreshed. =D Baby was so fucking cute lar. Wore my specs throughout the night. Cute!

Finally finished work, drunkard big Vince talked alot and kept us till 5am just because he wanna play pool with baby's Vincent. Played played played, drink drank but no drunk. We watched movie from the system and finally it was time to go home! Reached baby's room, and dozed off immeidately even though I asked him to buy bee hoon for me. Geee. =( Sorry dear.

Woke up feeling fresh and went to the living room for my cold bee hoon and watched MTV. Baby told me he hadn't sleep for 1 hour yet. -___- Because, I SLEPT THE WHOLE BED. He told me Tiffany was laughing at me when I was asleep and was waiting for me to give baby his space. Tiff was damn cute lar. =D

Finished my bee hoon, had my smoke, felt sleepy and went to bed. Baby gotten his stupid space and too bad I couldn't sleep back. Stoned on the bed with him and listened to his snores. Dozed off for a moment and Jiansheng called baby's phone. -___- Fetching us in an hour's time and we were still in bed.

Shook baby up but slept back myself. Jiansheng came upstairs and knocked the door, and I was showering. Baby was stoning and talking to him.

Cuteness.

Wore my new dress and Tiff and Uncle were in the living room. Got my morning stick and wished Uncle happy birthday. =D Off we go and Candy was kinda pissed off waiting for us. Sorry babe.

Went to Bugis and had steamboat! Shiokness. Ate till damn full and I hate their waitresses. Knowing that we were 5 persons, she gave us a 4 seater and blamed us for blocking the way. Never mind about this. She told us to move our plates away from the next table cause' there're two customers wanna sit there.

Besides that pathetic table, no other tables meh? China people are brain dead people. Not flexible in their thinking. Stupid asses. Don't think I will be going there again even though the food was good.

Went to Parco to get my eyelashes and glamour tapes.

Jiansheng drove me to work and baby left me for Bedok. Work was boring cause' I couldn't drink. Work work work. Baby, Vincent, Jiansheng, Derrick and another unknown guy came and baby left for like 1 hour plus cause' he went to Lighthouse to meet a girl who asked him to go there to find her.

=(

Dickhead.

He came back and was drunk. Stupid Lighthouse girl. =((

Vincent drove me back cause' I was pissed off at baby.

Reached home and baby called me and found him quite boring on the phone and slept immediately we hung up. Woke up at 4 plus the next late afternoon and realised it was a Sunday and my longggggggggg weekends had just ended and wasn't feeling really happy and was planning to stay at home. Zhiwei called and asked me to wake up and prepare to go out as they were on their way to my place already.

So, I rushed my stuffs and waited waited waited and waited. 6 plus, they were not here. 7 plus, they reached finally. Drove to Cine and met baby, Jiansheng and Vincent there. Finally got my tastebuds in contact with Martel and felt so good. Baoyi was there! So we crazed together. Baby told me something that reminded me of the other night.

There was this lady and a guy, they came in and asked for Cordon Bleu. I thought they were just playing cause' they were with baby that gang de ma. So I asked if they wanted really Cordon Bleu or just Martel? So they replied me CB, then I went to ask Jere and Jere went to ask Vince. Because.... BECAUSE... We only have 1 bottle Cordon Bleu for the time being only! Cb and that lady went to tell baby that there's this waitress in Millions who doesn't know the difference between Cordon Bleu and Martel. CCB lor. I know lor. Just that we only have 1 bottle CB and nobody has opened CB from us before.

Anyway you stepped into our pub, you can choose not to enter a stupid waitress' territory what. We always welcome people. But to you, I'm not sure though. I don't care whether you are baby's friend, or you expect me to treat you nice just to give baby his pride, very very very truly sincerely SORRY that I won't. Was so pissed at this matter last night and didn't talk to baby much cause' he kept apologising for her and asking me not to be angry with her.

Nb.

Got anything just come back and open that stupid bottle and talk to me lar. Baby said she didn't know I am his gf and she just say say nia. NIA. Kan ninia eh. I don't care you know or not but saying that a waitress working in a bar who doesn't know the difference between CB and Martell is ABSURD.

Went back and sleep sleep sleep at 5 plus and felt so fucking refreshed cause' I was so excited for school! I miss school and my friends! =D I'm back!!

Pictures will be uploaded the next time I log in. Time for break! =D

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Woke up by my mum at 9 plus in the morning just because baby wants me to take my medicine at 9. -______- And I was so pissed off and told my mum off. =( Couldn't sleep back and baby called at 10 plus to remind me to take my medicine.

RARRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!

Pissed off for the whole morning, laid on my bed and don't wanna sleep anymore, walked out of my room and grabbed my bread with Nutella and swallowed my pills. Disgusted. Mapled for my bro and baby called again to ask for a meet up session. Met baby and stayed at his home till 8 plus cause' we had to wait for Vince to settle his stuffs. Drove us to Marina South for steamboat and ate till we puked. I couldn't have my seafood. Baby cooked chicken chicken chicken for me.

Thanks dear.

Smoked while eating and I made Vince felt so "duh!" of me. He thinks I'm a heavy smoker cause' I could smoke 4 sticks in 45 minutes and he thought that I would die immediately. =)

Drove to Carls Code and got to know this cute girl called Baoyi AKA Adeline. What I can say is she is sucha noisy girl. Little bit little bit also scream. But she was fun. Enjoyed my night with her (even though I couldn't drink for the time being). Went to Millions after that and got a lil' trouble with my schedule cause' I wanna work tonight, which is Friday. But baby didn't allow me to. I rather work today than on Sunday when I can only go back at 3 and school will start at 8. -___-

Went home after Millions. Baby drove Vince's car to send me back and we talked and talked and talked. Baby's so cute last night. Reached home and did abit of project and wanted to send HIM the articles. But he himself gave me the wrong email. -__-

It's Friday today and I wanna go out! Jeremy doesn't allow me to work tonight either. Reb's going Daber O with the boys and I wanna join them! But I'm not sure if I will start to hurt or not. Geeeeee. =(

Love, Rybena.


** Blogger cannot upload pictures. Damn. I love watching MTV Mandarin with Baby. :)))

Post-note: We are the Jin family. We are from Korea. And we are...

Jeremy: Jin Yan Dao

Baby: Jin Shiao Sa

Derrick: Jin Han Sam

Adeline: Jin Swi Rah

ME: Jin Cheo Rah.

I'm sick.

I got UTI and I'm not feeling well. So, I won't be blogging until I'm well. SGH A&E sucks. Made me wait so long. =(

Love, Rybena.


Post-note: I owed you too much. You'd been there taking care of me since day 1 and it felt so weird. You're really sweet. But sometimes you're just too pussy, nanny and mosquito-y. Afterall, thank you so much dear. I love you. <33

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Right. 6 days after I last blogged and I kinda forgotten everything about what I did for the past days. But I knew I worked like a cow without having off days. And I was so shagged about it. Anyway it was rewarding lar. Cause' I earned quite alot this week but all the money were spent on my MEDICAL BILL.

Was feeling so damn sick this morning when I reached school and went back at 10 plus to Chinatown to see my doctor. Baby met me to bring me there. I thought I was having UTI or some other kinda female illness, that's why I went all the way to my favourite doctor. But, it was false alarm and I spent $199 for consultation and 2 kinds of anitibiotics.

DAMN.

Went back home, cried like hell cause' it still hurt and went to Bukit Batok(baby came to fetch me from home) to see my childhood doctor but all he told me was I was having constipation. That's all and mum paid $28.80 on it only. This is the different between city and neighbourhood.

Reached home with baby. Baby was so sweet cause' he bought me cigs. HAHA.

Alright. I'm too lazy to blog and I dunno what to blog cause' I failed to remember what I did.

Love, Rybena.

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Been so busy so I didn't really blog much and afterall I kinda forgot what I did for the past few days. So, I'll just write something about yesterday.

School sucked and slept through most of it. Cause' I was so fucking tired and my lenses couldn't stick to my eyes and my poor eyes felt so dry and sleepy. Sleep slept sleepen. -___- Z monster fought with me and I was woken up by friends for falling asleep. Too bad lar. I'm a busy woman who needs to work in the night and study in the day.

Why do I torture myself like this you might wonder. I'm not torturing myself but I'm training myself to be independent and not getting money from my parents and other people, especially my future BF. I won't allow him to send alot of bucks on me unless I allow him to do it lar.

Met up with Jessica after school and I was rushing my way down to meet her. Cause' Mark wanted to see me at 830pm. But I was still at Woodlands at 740pm. So, we went to Xcraft@Junction8 to enquire the piercing. But they said body piercings are only available at Far East or Tampines. I was so disappointed cause' I realised I came out for nothing last night.

Took a cab down to SMU to find Mark and he looked so shagged because of his studies, project meetings and his car's bodykit came off, his car's engine blew and he needs to redo his car this Saturday and I know his precious car means alot alot alot to him. Geee. I gave him my big fat massage last night and hoped he will feel much much better. And today he's meeting those big clients for job interview cause' he's ranked top 3 in his class. Well done!

Hope you will get the job! =D=D

I'm feeling so energetic for the first time going to school. Maybe because my adrenaline is pumping cause' I know I'm working tonight? Or is it because I'm going to pierce my belly after school with Jess? =D=D I'm just so excited and I want school to end fast today!

Right. I'm meeting Mark this Thursday again! =D=D

This is a crappy post.

Love, Rybena.

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2nd Nov. Mark's early birthday bash at MOVIDA! Happy! I'm not going to type anything cause' I'm afraid some bitch will log on into the net and found her name in my blog. So, pics will say them all! =D

Work was fun on 3rd Nov. Went to Dragonfly with Jess and some other cuties. So, pics will still say them all cause' I'm so late for work now! Will continue when I've got the time. =)

The girls.

The boys.

My silly birthday boy at the left.

Aren't they HOT?

That's NOT my twist at the right alright?!

Me and Kenni.

At Dragonfly.

That's Nelson.

That's all. And I'm freaking late for work already.

Love, Rybena.

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IT'S FINALLY NOVEMBER! AND IT ALSO MEANT IT'S COMING TO YEAR END. AND IT ALSO MEANT I'M GRADUATING FROM SCHOOL SOON!

Whole loads of craps, but I'm still going to write them all out. Cause' I've got nothing to do right now. You can choose to close your window, or grab a cup of coffee and sit in front of your PC and make sure that you don't grow pressure ulcers on your ass. =)

30.10.07.

I forgot what I did in school, so I'm going to write what I did after school. Went back home and actually meeting James for some shopping spree. Asked me to call him when I got home, the only thing I kena was to call him for like over 20 times, and he didn't pick up his stupid phone. He was asleep. So, luckily Raymond was at town at that time, met up with him, and went to buy my dress at Chaos.

Damn nice and it kinda cost me a bomb. Cost me a bomb cause' I didn't have much cash with me that night. But never mind. Mark and Gab came to meet me after Rarmond left. Went for makan and did the most stupidest thing in the world. Both of them asked me to buy drinks. When I was walking halfway to the drinks stall, I made a U-turn and they asked me if the stall had close. I said, nope, I forgot what you two wanna drink already.

-___- Both was like laughing at me so hard lar. Damn.

They went to Fisherman Village and I headed down to Millions to look for Seong and Vincent.

31.11.07:

No work that day, but kinda had a small tiny conflict with my groupmate. All about project works everytime. I swore I didn't receieve any emails from her. But she just kept saying she had already send to me. -_- Met up with James after school and got my new shoes! =D=D New dress and new shoes just for Friday! Gotta give my birthday boy a great surprise! =D

James was so blur that night and it made him damn cute lar. Went to get his new shirt and there was this salesgirl, she asked me if I'm from Simei or not. I said yes and she started talking about James. Haha. Then I lied to her that James is my brother and he's single and available and he's working at Attica.

She was like so "into" him, and was sticking to him the whole time we were at her shop. Finally left and the girl said James was as dark as charcoal. HAHAHAHHAHA. Sad arh James? Cry lor.

;P

Went for some ice cream at Gelare and I went back home, he went to work. Shagged the whole day that day cause' I hadn't get any good night sleep since the beginning of the week. Geeeee.

01.11.07:

Slept through my whole day in school and went to rush for work. Not really rush for work yet, but to meet Mark and his friends for dinner at a restaurant in Bedok. Reached his car at the right time and he accused me for being late. -_- Fuck you understand?!

Sat at the restaurant cause' so many people were late. Everybody saw my new Uno VS, and wanted to have a try. So, I smoked like only 6 sticks and the new pack was gone already. -_- $11.80 lehhh!!! Not cheap lehhhh! Gotta get new ones later already. Mark sent me to work after that and I enjoyed having dinner with his friends. Just that the only topic they talked about was only cars cars and still CARS. Butit was nice though.

;)

Vincent's got a new girlfriend and I think she's from China. Looked very cheena leh. Tiffany was there too. All waitresses were working except Shuying. Was quite pissed during work cause' one of the waitresses didn't know what she was doing and she was like getting paid for enjoying and entertaining herself with the microphone and the customers. She didn't do what she was supposed to do like to refill ice buckets and attending to customers who were coming in.

DANG.

Obviously Jere hasn't talked to her yet. And she made the world's most ridiculous request of leaving work at 2am last night when I was the only one working till 3. Might as well just fire her? Happy she comes to work, not happy, doesn't come. -__- Money isn't THAT easy to earn.

Jess's friend bought crab for us and we ate till damn song. Was so happy at work lar. =D=D

Went back home after work, and Ah Seong called me to talk while I'm on the way back cause' I'm afraid if I were to fall asleep in the cab, the uncle will bring me to somewhere and rape me. Got home feeling damn alert for the first time and planned not to go to school on Friday. Why am I not going school on Friday? All because of Deepavali, we were to make up for the lessons missed on Friday morning when we can go school at 1pm. So, I don't really give much damn about it, and skipped.

I hate dark chocolates.

02.11.07:

Yeah yeah. Skipped school today and finally gotten my GOOD NIGHT SLEEP for the first time this week and I felt so fucking fucking fucking fucking shiok!!! Came online to settle my editing for my project, and realised this groupmate of mine had given my a whole load of bullshits. Hello? We are talking about intrinsic and extrinsic factors in a working environment and NOT about education and students.

Funny she asked me to modify and edit the whole load of shit myself to working environoment and I couldn't do it! Not because my English is poor, but it's very impossible for me. So, I just don't give a damn and smsed her to do her research again. How are we gonna finish our project on time if everybody is to gimme craps?

Yeah, I know I'm the editor. But there's no need for you to send me THAT whole load of shits and wanting me to sort of the infos myself right? Might as well I do everything myself and hand up with only my name on the cover?

Sometimes I don't really care about what people think of me, the way I am, or the way I do things. If one day like now, I'm feeling good and I wanna do something serious, please thank god for that. Cause' everybody knows I'm a lazy person. If I wanna put in effort, I will put as much in as I can. So, don't treat Chinese for granted and let me do everything. Damn. Stupid Mdm Tan PG who separated me and Reb up.

We only have like 6 pathetic chinese in the class? And she expected every group to have at least one chinese. CCB. That the fucking Indians can have the whole group with their friends who are also indians lar? Some of them are malay-indians. Can arh laidat? Why are we chinese always getting bullied in class?

BECAUSE WE ARE THE MINORITY. Fuck you.

I'm chewing on pork now. My mum cooked it and I'm proud that I can have pig intestines, pig fats, pig brain, pig pig pig for my meals. I'm proud that I can speak fluent Chinese. But that doesn't mean I'm proud of getting bullied in class or in my group. I will try to negotiate stuffs with them even if they don't want to. Right. I'm being a lil' racist here. Angry? Fuck off and don't read lor.

Right right. Don't wanna spoil my mood for today's special event. I'm meeting Marissa at Vivo later and head off to MOVIDA!! For my birthday boy's birthday bash! VIP SOFA!! =D=D HAPPY!

Alright. I wanna stop here now. My ass is growing sores already. And I'm getting fat eating those pork. But they are just too YUMMMEYYY!

Love, Rybena.