im so freaking pissed . i cant go out later . god doesnt want me to go out . im having sore throat and a slight fever . havent eaten my breakfast yet . so i guess i shall fast today lor ? diaox .


sorry jessie . cant meet you out . not fated to do it i guess ? sorry sorry . but i also wanna watch that movie la . then i also want go kbox with you . but your mama dont let you neh . how sia . =''( sorry vin . made you wake up so early . sorry jerk . im still pissed at you . sorry for maing you piss at me also ? wah ~ this is the apology session ar ? -.-


nvm . its always the kids who make always make mistakes . adults wont do wrong things . haha . what a logic . make my stomach churn . he should know what i mean ? and who im inferring to ? good .


mama and papa went out liao . me and him at home . he watching initial d . i playing maple . so good ! we've our own things to do today ! instead of piising at each other . good good . i think im kinda childish . angry for what . diaox . the absolut last night made my throat painful . too hot . ='((


no one to care for me . haix . why just wont he answer my question ? nan dao ~


ok . off to maple . cya .

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i believe that the stage belongs to me .

i also believe that i belong to the stage .

i'm determined to go back from where i came from .

i've decided not to regret .

i won't quit .

thanks the juniors for giving me such a nice and warm support .

supporting me all the way .

making me believe that DANCE is my life .

yes , it's my life afterall .

hopefully i'm able to step onto the black-matted stage floor again .

pointe is always my dream .

able to do the splits and turns are my expectations .

even though i got a commended in my last exam .

i simply just love dancing .

wah~ i slept at 4. then i woke up at 8. -.-


*yawns*


reached ah gong's house the earliest. then i took lots of photos of myself. me myself and I. please hold on for the pictures. >>>


damn ugly me lor. the camera sucks.


this year's new year isnt a great year for me. hais. =((


my new year's resolutions: to dance again
treat my guy nicely
redye my hair again

these are only some la. the rest cannot tell. =P


ok la. i want go maple liao. blog also nothing to write nowadays. i wanna dance!!!

woke up so early man. sian. for the reunion dinner. then tml also have to wake up early to go bai nian. haiyoh. very tiring sia. ok. happy new year. the countdown just ended. -.-


he likes me ar? diaox. he seems to be hiding something from me. hmmx.


i wonder how's jessie and junyi going le. haiyoh. anyway, according to the lunar year, im 18 already. damn it. going to be 20 soon! old liao. fuck.


tml i shall take lots of photos. =D i go sleep le.


why does my chest hurts so much? as if my ribs are breaking soon. haix. im really olding.. and dying. =''((

i may be slapping my own mouth. but i know what's coming out from it. sigh~


can anyone just simply tell me what's in a man's mind? what does he really want? what does he need? i really don't get it. i'm so desperate to know the answers. i know what i am thinking. but he doesn't. maybe i'm loving him just too much. damn~ i may be a kid. but my brain isn't a kid. sigh~ he's doing things that are pulling both of us farther and farther. then finally, we will break up. i hate this scene.


sigh~

today went back to rgt for CNY. then actually that security guard dont let us go in one neh. then we bluff bluff say our huang lao shi waiting for us to help the juniors makeup. but the fact is that yingying is waiting la. haah. then the timothy that group was so jealous that we can go in and have the aircon while they cant! heehee~


anyway. today's dance's performance wasnt that bad like last time you know? was so shocked. but i have no idea why zhu will drop his drum. -.- too nervous?

some photos? >>>




was taking photos with my dearest jessie. >>>


kinda blur.

ok?


that was the first item of the whole concert. i cant believe they had another item! photos. >>>




the pictures are kinda blur hor? sorry, but my cam doesnt have auto focus.


we went to find the teachers lor. they were all so shocked man. why? my hair la. ask me why dye till laidat. but they can understand ma. =))


after the whole thing. we went to JP to makan, meet friends lor. i met vincent(my old friend), and jessie met her maple boyfriend. kinda disappointed la. but vincent is still as cute. =D but the junyi a lil' bit shy or whatever. haiyo. went home after jp lor. then we stopped at lot1. she let me see the I.P zone that guy. ok la. cute. but not really my type. she was like drooling for him. so, i decided to get his number so her. but she dont want. ok lor. haha. =DD


i just want you to spend more time with me. thats all i want. but why cant i get it? haix. you have no time for me. ='(( no time for me at all. your studies and work are pulling you further and further away from me. haix. why you dunno what i'm thinking. haix.


ok. write here lor. maple time again! does he still wanna be my maple stead? o.O i dunno. hopefully he still wants. =)

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went to the clinic with my mommy. mommy went to have a checkup. the nurses and doctor there have been looking at me since the day i was born. then they told my mama in front of me that im very pretty! haha! made my day smiling.


then i went to a shopping mall to buy clothes. (somemore clothes!), then the zhabo there working was attending to me. then she told my mama," ni de nu er hen piao liang hor.". in case those who dunno chinese, this is the translation, " your daughter is very pretty.". haha. so many people say im pretty that day! i was smsing my darling about that, when the zhabo ask me what phone im holding. she thought it was the samsung one. haha.


went to OG. walk till my feet break into 2 la. sian. didnt manage to buy the purple goth wear. it was the last piece and its the display one. so i only bought the skirt. im buying stockings to match with it! so, hang on people!


that day was tiring, but happy for me! i saw irene. -.- that bitch.


today, i packed my cupboards and closets. threw alot of things away. bye things! *sadded*


it's ok to lose a friend. i dont mind.


haix. my darling cant spend time with me anymore. studies are more important. =D thanks for tagging and reading my blog new people. i really appreciate that. =)

wah. went to sp with lock. the school just simply rocks! the courses and career fair. haha. but actually there's not many courses im interested in. the business course is not very interesting there also. ngee ann one still ok lar.


then we went to westmall. bought pure choc from coffee bean. then there's this waiter. so damn cute! but i wasnt interested in him. but jessie was soooooooooo stuck to him. haha. its ok la. he's cute. haha. =D


jessie was considering to buy a new shirt for her mama. ok la. its quite nice. but she told me her mama cant fit in that. diaos. haha.


i hate hearing you say srry over and over and over again like dunno what. im sick of them!!!!

got myself pissed from the moment i woke up today. fuck it.


my estate is under renovation. they are repainting everything. then, when my parents came back, they were screaming. why? cause some blardy fucking bangalahs.


where are their brains? they were washing the walls. cant they think that the water would come into people's flats? was it the weather too hot? burn their brains? they cant think? then i was like soooooooo fucking angry.


luckily my darling's watch didnt get wet. if it got wet, tthe bangalahs sure die.


fucking cheebye indian mothafuckas.


im not racists or what. i just dont like the way they do things. cant they take the initiative to inform the people to close their windows? or if the people cant hear, why cant their bloody hands just fuckingly stretch out to close them for us? what are they thinking?


im going to lodge a complain. bangalahs come to singapore to work, and live only. ok? ONLY! what else do they do? they molest people, or else what you think they do? im so angry with them. they go hell.


i didnt know she know him also. damn it. fuck it also.

wah~ ruxin so cute! she got married to er... what's his name? forgot liao.


anyway. they are so xing fu. i hope me and my darling will also be xing fu also. i hope he will be my one and only. the last one. the one i got married to. dont dare to think so much. but i know i love him too much. so much that you can even imagine. i love you baby.


muahs~ <3


lotofLOVE,metoyou.
("("v")

ok. that's a corn ok? a corn you idiot. i dont wanna be with the pain anymore!! remove it you idiot!


anyway. i finished my ben and jerry's! woohoo! chunky monkey! woots! x)


** FUCK OUT OF MY LIFE YOU SLUT. STOP MAKING YOURSELF LOOK SO FUCKING DESPO. I DONT NEED YOU. WAIT TILL YOU GET YOURSELF CHEATED, THEN YOU DONT COME BACK TO ME TELLING ME YOU REGRETED. I WONT HEAR YOU SAY ALL THESE FAKE THINGS AGAIN. IM BEGINNING TO HATE YOU. I SAY HATE. HAIX. WHY DID YOU MAKE YOURSELF LIKE THIS. I DONT GET IT. THEY SUCK. YOU DONT GET IT? I THINK I DONT GET YOU. YOU ARE THE BITCH. ***

whoa! i woke at 9am today. it's the earliest since the holidays history year 2005-2006. haha. cus i went to AXA building with my darling. but didnt manage to go to the doc today lar. finish all the forms, hear that man talk, stood us for about 3 hours. -.-


after that, we went to BK. makan makan. we were about to reach ghim moh, then someone from dunno what agency called my darling. saying he won the free dbs cards or something. then we went to the building again. somewhere near that building. SIAN!


on the way back, we walked back to the carpark. there's this uncle, whom i dunno who. he walked pass me, then he looked at me and whistle. siao. then i turned back. he turned back also. -.- he then smiled at me. for fuck? do i know you uncle? crazy. i know im pretty lar. my darling also said im pretty. there were guys from the insworld school, international school lar, they were at the coffee shop. also looking at me. -.- okok. i know im sooooooo freakin' pretty lar k? ahahahahaha. those people think im bhb or what, please ar, im not hor. this is just some high confident comments on yourself. =D


im pretty ok! here's one kickass photo:




heavy rain on the way. haix. then i found out i still have a tiny corn left on my toe. damn it! have to undergo the freezing and meltinh process again! fuck!

what?! koreans' dicks are the smallest?! the biggest are the ang mohs?! think so. angmohs have really BIG dicks. =OO


anyway. my darling starts his class tonight. boring night for me. waiting for him to come home. i think we wont be having as much time as we are having now. he is spending too much time on his work and classes from today onwards. haix. i wanna start school! i wanna work! to burn more time. even saturday he has class. -.- sigh! i think we wont be going out that often also. hais. im so sad.


what? im from damai sec? nono. me not. you called the wrong person. diaox. -.- stupid day for me. haix

play maple, then play properly lor. find what maple boyfriends. wha piang, what is the world coming to now man. the megaphone is not for you girls to do this one lor. disgracing we females. wtf? hais. just stop it man. i had enough!

went to jurong point yesterday. finally. got to look at my lock for once. haha. miss her so much. anyway.


i bought one green razor back from puremilk. cus my horoscope says my lucky colour this new year is green. haha.


GREEN.


then i bought a denim skirt from jennyfer. went into the changing room with lock. she saw it! =(( haha.


bought a pair of high heels from noda. i didnt manage to look at the price when i was at the store. but when i reach home, i saw the receipt. $33.90! wtf? if i saw the price at the shop, i wont buy it. why? cuase it's FUCKING EX!


bought a bag at jennyfer also. my darling chose it for me. its quite nice. but it looks like a makeup box thou. nvm. its nice. got it at a 20% discount. haha.


didnt manage to buy any new makeups yesterday. short of money. but i bought sushi! SUSHI!! and dragon beard candy!!


sian. tml my darling's class starts. and i gotta wait till 10pm before i can see him. hais. boring.


this saturday will be going to far east to buy some cheap stuffs. woohoo! shopping spree for me!!!! =DD


im so bored. maple also bo lui. sian.

Are the Air-cons in Shopping Centres too Cold for Us?
Why dont They Cut Down on the Usage?


who says the air cons in shopping centres are not freezing? like in cinemas, the aircon is so cold. if i dont bring a sweater there, i simply cant watch the movie peacefully, instead, i shiver on the seat peacefully. i agree to some who say the aircon is not cold. why? most prob the people who agree on this have a higher body temperature. they can withstand the cold, but some cant, just like me. hehe. whatever~

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woohoo! yesterday i bought my phone! finally! im catching up with you people! im not going to be so laggy! =DD


anyway. im a PI? haha. hopefully i can be one lor. anyway. HE sucks, my dear. ya. you should love your life. there's noone going to change your life k? dont care about him anymore. HE loves a bitch, thats his business. ok? so, there's nothing for you to be angry about. its his loss ma. RIGHT~? haha. =DD


we females dont need the males. the most shameful thing is the males need the females, and this 'logic' sucks. i dont like it.


hey dear. dont care about HER k? she sucks also. just like him. i agree with you k? whatever you do, i'll be behind you ya? i love ya! mwahs~


i dont like you! hmph! >.<

The Bad Year


wah! teban gardens got murder! my old home. wah~ so scary. i dont want go there liao. even chinese new year! =((


my exp drop by 5% again. fuck. stupid green mush. ='(


the phone will only come in friday. sian. also dunno if i'll still buy it anot. should i wait? i dunno. haix. his money. hais. forget it. never mind. this year's chinese new year sucks for me. no clothes. no shoes. no bags. no makeups. no and nothing. i havent buy anything so far. damn. firstly its my toes pissing me off, secondly im so lazy. and my hair sucks. the colour is fading. i have to go to the saloon to redo. there are so many things to do this year. but i just dont feel like doing anything! fuck. =(((


everything seems to be so bad this year. my love is good. = but my things, the process. maybe i should bi nian this year. i hate showing people my shameful part of me. sian. i desperately need all these things! ='((( haix.


anyway. bad year for me. =(

The Ren Ci Charity

is there really a need of dangerous stunts just for the public to donate money? this year, they had achieved S$2 million more from their target. S$7m. the donations became the highest when Vernerable Shi Ming Yi walked 2 22m long wooden poles, 66m above Republic Plaza. was it really necessary for him to risk his life, just to make the public call the hotlines?


singing and dancing were not enough for some people. but it is really, enough is enough. year 2003, he did abseiling at Suntec City, 2004, he stood in 1000kg of ice for 23 minutes. every year, he would do something that is so dangerous, one wrong move would cost his life, or to injure him. like this year, it was raining so heaily and the wind was so strong. the poles were slippery and wet.


i understand he wanted to set an example for the public, telling people that the people are suffering more than us. but, dont you think, it's worthless for him to do these things? why not just let the concert to perform in the hall, then to encourage the people to call the hotline?


but i bet after the performance of the monk, many people were touched by his bravery and determination.


many people are feeling numb to charity shows. why? because of the increase in dangerous stunts. too much of the good things make things bad.


if everybody in singapore, went to the phone after seeing the stunts, what signal is the singaporeans giving? that singaporeans are full of love? care? another side is the hospital. did Vernerable Shi Ming Yi did these stunts, merely just want the hospital to be rich? NO.


when donating money, you must be full of love, kindness. if the stunts is soooooooo touching, that you cried your house to an ocean, does it mean that you're going to call non-stop? your choice.


what my suggestion is, stop these stunts. if singapreans are kind enough to donate money, there's no need to have these shows, they will still donate money. how i feel is that the organisations are using the artistes to get whatever some of money they want. bad.

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anyway. i'll be buying a new phone today! the n6111! woohoo! my darling's buying for me! haha. im so excited! there's no need to stick with this lousy phone anymore! haha. anyway. =D

my fingers hurt. my toe hurts. my arms hurt. my legs hurt. everything hurts. hais.


haha. it was 2am when we strolled to 7-11 to buy suppers. -.- ate alot man. eat till we puke. =\


will be going to rgt to get my thing. eagles! =D


i love my hair!


guitar rocks. =))


miting jessie later. cya. maple in progress.


me and my dear mickey baby. =))

whoa! today we went to the warehouse sales. op and converse. wtf man. went to op. didnt know that their things are like so lan. worse than those sold in stores. no wonder they want a warehouse sale. or do they actually wanted a * cleaning factory sale * ? -.-


then the converse one. made me so freaking pissed. firstly, the weather was like sdo bloody hot, somemore its after the rain. then, who are the salespersons? AH BENGS and AH LIANS. wah piang eh. the factory leh. why do they have this kinda fucking people working for them sia?


anyway. what made me really angry was, when we were queueing for the counter, there was this fucking long hair woman. ok lar, she's pretty lar. but what made me hate her so much? she pushed me away with her fucking BUTT! i mean she squeezed her way through my shooing me away using her fucking ass!?


then, you know, there are carts filled with clothes? ya? there were alot of people crowding around the carts. what? there's gold or money over there? why cant u asses fuck off or something? let other people cross over lar! but there's this man, trying to squeeze between women. i think i felt my ass being touched or what lor. then i look around, then i saw this particular man. wah lao, cant your fucking eyes see there's so many women around you? you want get the things, cant you wait for the people to make their things done then you take ar? and i guess it was YOU who touched my arse, correct? ya! correct! it was YOU! wah lao weh. ugly singaporeans. the sales thing, it also reflected that singaporeans are really ugly and they suck! and some are so bian tai.


warehouse sales are cheap, but do the people have to chiong all the way? pushing other people aside and get their own 'cheap' stuffs? please lor, i think going to the stores to get the same thing, although they are more expensive there, i think its all worth the effort. at the warehouse, there's so many dirty hands touching the same thing you're touching, what if that person has bird flu?! you DIE!

why cant the warehouse sale be more organised? like this area, you display shoes, you sell shoes, there you sell clothes and other stuffs. and they anyhow, this thing a little bit here, little bit there. its like so messy and DISORGANISED!


what the FUCK?


being so disgraceful to singapore. sales, sales lar! 70%-95% off, off lar! must behave so erxin-ly meh? wah lao. i nearly puke when i step into the crowd. its really so disgusting.


queue up, also dont know how to queue, fake fake cut into people's line? wah fuck. then the bengsters and lians, also like dont know how to work laidat lor. talk talk talk, ask them things, they give people what kinda stupid faces? if im the boss, i wont employ them. i WONT. mark my words.


anyway. after the whole thing, my mood was so bad, that i scolded and glared at anyone i saw just now.


then we went to salon. i cut my hair, which made me quite elated, cus i dont have to 'stead' with this junglewoman hair anymore. then i saw one woman dyeing her hair purple. and of cos i got interested lar. then i told my hairdresser i go consider first lor. then i went to dye also.


haha. i dyed purple lar actually, but dont know why it turned out to be PINK. wait. got pic show. but the pic not so clear lar. pic shows RED. -.- even worse. ehs. why no pic one. the blog thing sucks lar. cannot upload today. never mind. show you people next time lor. hehe.



guitar rocks. i love guitar! woohoo! i've learnt Em, C, Dm, er. stil got what ar? never mind. cant remember so much. =D cya people.


i love my darling. ("("v")

today aint a happy day thou. got pissed from the moment i woke up. =( need to rush for the doc. damn. there isnt any infection! woohoo! =)


anyway. i feel that some girls are really pathetic. haix. why do they make themselves look so despo, or bitchy? lol. or making other people feel that they are idiots. haix. feel so sorry for them. they should change the way they think. i cant stand girls to drool from the moment when they see shuai ge-s or rich men. its so. being sorry to the females! omg~ so, what are they called? despos. haha. no offence thou.


i have no idea if jasmine is a real person anot. she hasnt been talking to me since i dont know when. if i found out that she's a guy or someone trying to impersonate her, i'm really going to kill that fucking mothafucka off man.


anyway. off to victoria island i go! *poof!*

today's my darling's birthday! and he doesnt need to work! but he's working tml la. trying to use his half day tml. hmm. we went to withdraw some money from my bank. then we went to service his car. luckily it wasnt so long like that time, installing just a thing and took 7 hours. -.- phew! anyway. i bought purple and blue lense already! oops. my darling's having flu?


hmm. my toe hurts to the core. damn~ oooh. my darling came out of the room!

happy birthday to you!

happy birthday to you!

happy birthday to darling~

happy birthday to you!
muahs*

i love you!

you 2_ years old liao hor?

old liao le.

so, must act grown up liao k?

take care~

anyway. i love my darling~

my toe hurts. fuck. the doctor cut my flesh away. -.- then it kept bleeding last night. damn~ so pain also lor. nbm. i wil ren~


today is our 4th month liao! woohoo! so happy! keep smiling! next week we are going to the suki buffet again! woohoo! so happy!


anyway. this song rocks. comic boyz. they disband liao. too bad. their song nice. this one. ` ai qing bu yong fan yi` >>> http://www.haoting.com/htmusic/84963ht.htm

i'm taking up guitar tonight! woohoo! my teacher is... dont tell you! he is a very renowned guitarist leh. so excited! woohoo! no la. its my darling. -.- not funny hor? =\


anyway. today is jessie's first day of school. haha. got cute guy liao lor dont wan me liao right? wooo~


nothing to talk about here today. go mapling liao! cya.


tml is our 4th month liao! so fast~ oooh. we having chalet? cool. at sentosa. either to have a chalet or camp at the beach. -.- haha. i chose the camp one. cause can see stars ma. arbo you wan stay in the room for wad? lol. i don think im going thou. cause i feel like working all the sudden. but the chamelon. i think they are the cheats lor. i go for the interview, they still wana employ people. lol. think they dont want me liao lor. damn~ haha. but nvm. i can stay penniless. =] anyway. mapling now. cya. orh ya. his birthday is coming. =D

sorry but i think i dont wanna go anywhere liao. you've just spoiled everything. guitar is your life i see... so well fine then. carry on to play your beloved guitar, and throw me outside the room. ok? i had enough. carry on. dont stop. im going to play my maple, and you are going out yourself to orchard with your beloeved friends or to continue to play your guitar. i cant have what i want, but you can. so, congrats, finally you are able to touch the electric guitar once again. wow~ yesterday i was so pissed is also because of this. today, when we are supposed to go out, what did you do? oh well. i guess i will just stick at home. ok? you, go out, i play my maple. WO SHOU GOU LE! since you love guitar so much, why not you go find a girl who have the same interest as you, then to throw your girlfriend outside? wow~ suan le. i dont like the idea of it.

wah. so long never write liao hor? i mean write at home. oooh. im mapling again. at cassio. so, all people must play k? haha.


this morning is the worst moring i ever had. hais. phew. its over liao thou. =]


we went to holland v at the evening, then have katong laksa. wah~ so nice, so full. then i forgot mama had prepared steamboat for us. then i just tried to swallow everything lor. =X


hmm. i duno why guys like guitars so much. like my bro and darling. hais. then left me alone, stranded. hais. anyway. me go maple liao. =D cya people.