oooh. darling came home at about 10? then we tried to look for jobs. nothing for me. none of them needs students. den suan le. anyway. that day is the most memorable day i ever had. i went to remove my corn on my toe. there's three of them.


my doctor cut away the excess hard skin on the corns. then he tried to pull, pull out my corn. damn. then i shout. =.= then he spray some duno what cold stuff onto it la. then it was so cold my tears streaming out liao.then he said the corns had frozen. the pain came when they started to melt. FUCK! so BLARDY painful leh. hugging my darling. tears are like tsunami laidat. wah lao weh. ='( orh ya. i remembered i was crying for jessie. -.- then my mama telling me to shut up. -.-


anyway. having a hard time walking. now got one big blardy blister growing out. damn big. dont ever try to imagine. heehee!


what?! you asked me to stay over youe house? no way hor. later your gf kill me, i die. anyway, i also dont wanna stay over. thx. =)


me at jessie de house. watched madargasca and incredibles. darling's not home tonight. =((

my darling my darling my darling. dont be sad anymore. dont be demoralised. dont feel so unhappy. dont feel so useless in life. dont feel that reality is cruel to you. stop thinking about all these negative things. it will make you sad and think more, while it hurts me to the core. all i want you is a happy smiling face, and not a frowning and thinking face. its ok not to buy things for me. just save up your money and fix your car. rings, flowers, you can out till later date. its ok with me. wait till we get married. ok? haix.


sad sad sad. dont be sad. smile always okie? i told you i'll be mad if i see you unhappy tml right? then you better not be unhappy. okie?


i simply cant stand it. my parents. blardy backstabbers. what did they do? they know themselves more. i dont wanna talk about it. it will only make me more mad at them. fucked up life people. fucked up life i have. haix. reality sucks. its true.


if your car pass away, then you will pass away with it, them you shall go ahead with your decision. selfish. self centered. go ahead. go finish yourself. i hate you lar. get this thinking away before you come near me. i wont talk to you tonight already. go die lor. bye.

* pissed

my darling's gone to his duty. my dad's at home. making qlutimous rice again! woohoo! but he's a noob in this. my mum's helping him. teaching him.


im so freaking sian. my bro woke me up with his blardy guitar early in the morning just now. then on his music to dunno what volume. damn it~ then woke up with a headache. =((


anyway. wallace and gormit's on the tv now. kids central. was watching mickey christmas special. im so sian.


without my darling at home pei me. ='( but he's online! i wanna go out today! but nowhere i can go. so sickened.


ok la. also nothing to write today again. then i end here la. anything i will write again later. ^_^

happy christmas everyone. ehs. last night i got myself a set of jewels.~ =XX anyway. we went to jurong point for shopping for nothing. haha.


ok lar. today nothing to write one. only abit buay song nia la. someone keep looking at my jasmine. doesnt give a damn that im just next to him/ her. fuck. i'm so pissed. now he keep staring at me as if he going to eat me laidat. anyway.


MERRY CHRISTMAS~ ooh. i got a kiss from him! =D

today is christmas eve. 24th of december. and im very happy today. we woke up at 11.30, then we went to lot1 to buy presents. i bought 3 pairs of Levi's underwears for him. i think he's damn happy now? cause his ass worth Levi's. haha. then we bought 2 mickey cups for me and a big head tortoise for me! so happy! the tortoise is damn cute! wait i show you! front view.


top view.


aint she/ he cute? omg~ my darling wanted to buy ring for me from lee hwa. the purple gold. but too ex. then i said i dont want liao. dont want him to waste money again. always splurge on these kinda things on me one. so waste. just buy a plastic ring is enough for me liao. =D last night he came home, he gave me a shower gel from body shop. vanilla, nutmeg and cinnamon. damn nice. or is he thinking that i have BO? hmm~ =X


later going to my aunty house to get more presents! woohoo!


went to make up my darling. he's sooooo chio. ren yao~ hahahah. i didnt know he hates me so much. didnt see him online these days. hais. but, who cares? heehee.


k la. i wanna go bath liao. tired. need something to perk me up. my DARLING! cya people.

lotsofLOVE.

me!

lol. someone just told me he loves me! haha. he loves me. for what. i've a boyfriend. i need no-one else. so please, dont love me. thank you.


anyway. i dreamt of myself dancing today again.


darling's coming back late at night tonight. should i wait for him? lols. i'll go sleep when i'm tired. so, dont expect too much my dear. most prob i wont doze off.

jessie got herself scolded in her blog again. why are there stupid and nothing to do people in this world. i think i should just kill them off? heex.


shit. forgotten what i wanted to say. so, forget it.


today's andre's birthday. haha. happy brithday boy. ur an adult! =D 18 years old, not adult meh? hmmx.


yay! tml is christmas eve! going to get presents again! going to auntie house to stay over with my bf! woohoo! i'm so blardy excited!


orh ya. ytd was the day to eat tang yuan. im old liao. 17. hais. going to die. =(((


ok. i go eat first. coming back. *gonex*


im BACK~!


ok la. dont wanna write liao. he's not calling me liao. i think? so, i wont wait for your blardy call anymore! i hate you! orh ya. there's something make me hate you even more. i told you, you didnt even put in any blardy efforts! hey, dont say you cant do it. like my friends said, you have no determination. and i hate it. u dont have a mind telling you that you wanna stop, in your heart, i dont think you wish to stop, right? do you think i'ma dumbass or what? hey. i really hate it and its making me hate you as well! why was i so quiet on the phone? you still dont get it? why was i so quiet last night? you still dont understand? what do you expect me to tell you then? i'm trying to save you, help you, you dont want is it? or you dont need my help? or you dont even appreciate it? huh?! you tell me personally lar. my parents are a blardy bunch of backstabbers already. and i'm pissed of that. now you. and those blardy dreams. fine. fine. FINE! everything is pissing me off. and you are the most disappointing idiot. oh well. you want, you can listen to me. you dont feel like listening, then DONT! then fuck off from me and i'll love that. thanks.

its haunting me. really haunting me. been dreaming myself dancing for the past weeks, since the day i'd quit the troupe. im so scared and sad. all the dreams are showing me that i'm going back there. should i? or should i not? i'm so confused. hais. i wanna go back. but my parents dont allow me to. fuck it. i should have finish my exam before i quitted. damn it~ why am i sooooooo toot?! can anyone just slap me or something? i'm so so so so so so so dumb. so what if the troupe's door always opened for me? whats the use? i cant go back and people, stop asking me to go back there. i'm already sick of the dreams, and now i'm like being forced. hais. i really wanna dance. i wanna step onto the stage again, and forever. get those dreams to stop coming back to me. one night is junwei telling me to dance again, one night is meiling, one night is seok, one night is selene, one night is bere, one night is elaine, one night is shuwen, one night is wangda, one night is huang laoshi. the one most saddens me is huang lao shi. i think i kinda dui bu qi him. i'm so sorry. hais. i'm sorry people, but i dont think i cant get back there anymore. i wish to. but i really cant. hais. i wanna dance again. hais. i hope the dreams will just stop for one night. just one night. they are killing me. hais. i'm sad. thinking about the past, making me cry. i cant seem to forget them. hais. who asked me to be so dumb in the first place? put the blame on me. hais. tml is andre's birthday if im not wrong. happy birthday. hais.

ME AND MY DARLING.___

SHE : 16 years old

EX- regenite

Wife of Mr. Kirk Huang

Husband of Mrs Jessie Ng

Princess in the house and in his heart



HE : 24 years old

RSAF

Husband of Mrs Huang

Maid in the house; Prince in her heart



STARTED ON : 4th September 2005

END ON : -

STATUS : MARRIED.


***** The following entry is dedicated to my beloved hubby*****


since i'm straightforward, i shall start straightforwardly.
darling, i know you have a hard time last year and this year. hard time for?


wooing me.


since last year, i first met you at bugis. then my aunt intro me to you, you to me. then we did not become friends at that time.i just told my aunt that you're cute. then we met each other at the dinner and dance again. this time you asked for my number. i was so elated.


haha.


then after that night, i was waiting for your call everyday. finally. you called me. you were having duty that night. i just had my shower. you asked me if the cute i described you to my aunt was a good thing or bad. of course its a good thing. then you gave me your number. then we were friends from then on. we chatted everynight, then we went out together one day, to bugis, where we took loads of pictures, and they SUCK to the core. but too bad. they were taken.


then we went kbox after that. i was shivering like shit. then you hugged me. then at 12am you brought me home. my aunt was at home waiting for me, asked me why was i late?


haha.


of couse i didnt tell her we went kbox. i would be killed. the next day my aunt called me saying people were talking about the pictures you took with me. -.- i was so paisae.


haha.


then i dunno why suddenly we did not contact each other for so long. then one night i called you to fetch me from orchard. i think you're pissed that night, course you're asleep then i called you just to fetch me home.


haha.


at least you still cared for me that night, course it was late in the night and you're worried i'm going home alone. right?


haha.


so touched. anyway. when i reached home, i wanted to kiss you, but i was just afraid you will get the wrong impression of me and hated me instead, so i didnt in the end. so i went home. then we began to contact each other again.


one night on the phone, i was your councellor, i was counselling you. then you told me, you like a girl named jiahui, but the girl didnt know you loved her so much. then i advised you to tell that jiahui.


haha.

you brought me to suki buffet. then we cant finish the food, you were like squishing the food under the plates, hiding foos everywhere you could find.


haha.


then i thought you were cute. so cute. then you stayed over my house. we reached home, then we laid on the bed. i was so tired. then you began to kiss me.


haha.


actually that time i had no feelings for you, so i was thinking just a kiss wont do anything, so i kissed you also. then you should know what happened. =P then we have been very very very close friends from then on.


haha.


then one day, i ran down a fever. i was with that idiot, who did nothing when i'm sick. i was so deep asleep, you were not. you were just sitting next to me, looking me sleeping, touching my forehead, taking my temperature. then you told me you kissed me. -.-


haha.


then after that night, i was so touched. i remembered we kinda quarreled then you left me alone for a half a night and half a morning. when i woke up and found you gone, i was like crying non-stop, keep wanting you to come back.


haha.


well. you did. we washed your car together. from that day, i realised that i loved you more than anyone else. so, i decided to tell you. went your house, i wrote in my friendster blog, saying i've found my guy, and that's you.


haha.


then you're there reading what i'd typed. then we went to east coast at night to have supper. holding your sissy hand. ( i call your hand sissy.)


haha.


then till now. i'm so happy. so happy with you. i bet you're also very happy?


i love you darling. forever.


-end-


something to play with. >>> http://img.tapuz.co.il/forums/20208414.htm

lols. ya. i totally agree with my husband. guys are :

1. TOTAL BUSTARDS

2. TOTAL ASSHOLES

3. TOTAL JERKS


may he and she WONT last lor. i dont like her at all. really hated her in school. now she made my hubby so heartbroken. hate her more now. damn~


anyway. we girls dont need guys. but as the matter of fact, guy need girls! hey. whats the world coming to now? -.-

here are messages for the bustard and the bytch.

oops.

did i just said BYTCH?

i'm so SORRY!

sorry your HEAD!

if YOU have NO sincerity, please DONT break girls' hearts anymore, like now you DID! you bastard. giving her so many fuckin' fake promises and made her waited for YOU. hey. she's a girl YOU know? she's NOT someone whom YOU can play and PUSH AROUND! she's NOT a CHEWING GUM! after tasting her no taste liao, a new piece of gum comes, YOU SPITTED her AWAY and GO AWAY with the new one. hey. are YOU a man? or a SISSY? OMG~ may YOU and HER die in a TERRIBLE DEATH. sorry to curse YOU. but i wish.


YOU : the SISSY boy. [HER] : the DESPO girl.


haha. you're MARRIED ar? then what am i liao? hahahahahaha! so funny man~


YOU, dont deserved to be loved. YOU just hook up a girl when YOU feel like it. when YOU dont want HER already, i bet YOU will just fucking simply dump her aside. am I right? OF COS IM RIGHT!


anyway. dont trust guys too much. some are F.A.G( Fuck And Go, to be exact), some are FLIRTS, like YOU. ok? i'm not trying to insult YOU or what. but these are fucking facts and YOU canT even deny THEM! hahahahaha! HAHAHAHA! am I right? oooh hooo. IM ABSOLUTLY right again!


ok. enough of them. wasting my blog space. hmm. jessie, cheer up k? being angry with HIM, its USELESS! its like you're angry with a piece of SHIT. haha. he's not shuai. he's not cute. he's not adorable. he's just simply, UGLY. haha. =D


hmm. my darling's at work. jia you! dont fall asleep! i miss you. *kisses you~


hmm. i miss jessie. *kisses you~


more updates coming up later this afternoon. =D lots to tell. =D

to my dear dear dear lil' brother.


i dont wanna see you sad next year. i hate thinking of you being astray next year. why did i nag about everything to you? not scolding you. so dont keep saying me scolding you.


keep wanting you good. but did i get back just now? : SHUT UP LA!


HEY. you know how much it hurts me just now? i just feel like smashing your head up. just feel like slapping you.


now you have been swearing at home. then what will happen to you next year? you wanna be like my past ar? you wanna rot? you wont know it only after you have experience everything like me, then you will start to regret.


yes. i've regretted for not studying. i regretted joining them. i regretted everything i'd done. you want to be like me also? i sms you last night. you claim that you've del them away. i bet you've read them liao?


im your sister. no. i'm just another failure. a fucking failure who cant even advise my own brother. i cant seem to do anything that can pass. you better stop being so defiant and complacent about it. dont gloat over it. you wont like the ending.


just say a sorry. i may forgive you. study is for yourself. not for me. you dont study for me, nor your parents. i hate saying this. but i hate you. girls dont rule in sec sch lives. poly is when you find great girls.


study hard man. i mean boy. you will love me one day. =))

wah. how many posts i posted to day ar? hehe. no la. very boring today. my darling dont wanna talk to me on the phone. ='(


anyway. i wanna go sentosa la.


jazz rocks. beyond also very nice. why so many people like superfunkies so much de? lols. i need a job man. papa intro so many, from cake shop to factories. eee. all i dont like one. ok la. i write this entry cus i'm sian sian SIAN la. havent bath yet. so dirty. change my pad only. =X haha. anyway. whats wrong saying girls stuff in blogs? you not girl meh? lols.


i miss my darling. my nose hurts again. why laidat. i wanna go for more piercings! i wanna pierce my labret. i wanna pierce! PIERCE all my life! woots~ hmm. not scared of the pain lar. scared infection only. then the yellow thing squeeze out like pimple laidat. but darling dont lemme pierce. he says i've had enough and he got enough of my piercings. then i go do TATTOOS! no lar. joking. i hate tattoos. wait. got one picture to show. >>>


omg. this is so cool man! i want it! x))


my face. so damn oily. i wanna bath liao. er xin~ cya people. updating blog tml. =DD

guysareALLbasturds

allareheartbreakers

theyareWORTHLESS

jerks

YOUtoo

justFUCKoff

omg. was surfing internet then i came across this girl or should i say old aunty. >>>

who the fuck is she? she is the most popular blogger in CHINA. she posted online that she is looking for a boyfriend now. omg. OMG! whats she? she's ugly? she's disgusting! omg. she is the woman in china whose blog is to hook up men, or should i say married men? eee~ went to xiaxue's blog. also saw her in her blog. this woman is 'Furong JieJie', which means 'Lotus Sister'. wah~ she claims that she is a beauty in her country. ok wait. i'm going to show you something. something that made everybody smiles. >>>


xiaxue had photoshopped her. the fatass is her lar. the skinny one. omg. she's just so simply chio lor. after photoshopping la. the original her looks like a PIG or a fat ass. haha. anyway. lols. i think i would fuck her if she is really the skinny fella. if i got a dick lar. i dont have la. so i better shut up. =X


anyway. i know she loves her body... but does she got the rights to flaunt it anot ar? eee. people would think. i dont know. bgut i only know she's disgusting. damn disgusting. i know she is from china. the taste there is somehow different from singapore. ok la. if she can become the photoshop one. hats off. =D


anyway. no offence. china has banned their people from visiting blogspot.com. so. i guess she wont get to read my entry though. NO offence ar, for those who are a BIG fan of hers. =D

these nights have been sleepless nights for me. all i dreamt for the past nights are dance dance DANCE! wah lao weh. then i very helpless. kept thinking why did i quitted. hais. should have quit after my exam mah. now i've wasted everything. i just wanna dance all my life. i wanna belong to the stage. damn~ can i turn back time? =''( i wanna go back. my flexibility are all gone liao. go back for what. and my knees. are pissing me off. i really wanna dance. my parents dont allow me to do it. why sia? i wanna go attitude. but the fees there very ex. cant afford to go there. nbm. past is past. all i want now is to work. but no fucking work im interested lor. damn it. whats the world coming to?!


whats going to happen on the 23rd? i dont dare to think. i wanna go out. but who going out with me? im so freaking pissed.


anyway. ying asked me to watch what superfunkies. i think mediacorp sucks to the core. whats the use of having so many competitions? what super host, what ' xiao yuan superstar', stil what next year superband somemore. ehs. you all 'jiak ba bo sai bang' ar? you all very stupid lor. even channel 5. the singapore idol. its only one time lor. then next year another one. where got so many de? too much of the good thing make the thing bad lor. wont they get bored? sing sing sing. dont worry lor. they wont make themselves big in singapore de. only those who attend real singing lessons like sun yanzi, only some of them will be red in the asia lor. u tell weilian go taiwan lor, ok lar. dont say bad about him la. will get fans, but not that much also lor. being fans of the 'superstars', also no use de lor. their singing not good at all lor. what they are good in are their LOOKS. grils fanning for them because of their looks lor. siao. tcan they do something worthwhile ar? then to stand there and shout the stupid names. -.- kinda idiotic. haiyoh. i think mediacorp shoudl stop all these craps. not eveyone's interested. only earnings for them, wasting for us lor. no la. not insulting the tv. but i just feel its useless having so many competitions. just one is enough. why so many? no good. anyway. =D no offence to mediacorp. just blogging down what i feel. =DD


anyway. ike i said. guys are all heartbreakers. beside this, what they do? haha. give girls what they call is 'love', then dump them liao. made them lose contacts with their frens and all that. like HER? hmm. no fret la girls. dont care about him. and HIM la hor? their mouth. =D


i'm so pissed. anybody want quarrel with me? come find me lor. i wanna let out my steam. -.- beat u up also can. especially YOU. =(( he made me pissed, they made me pissed, everybody made me pissed. all go die lar. fucked up people.

lotsofHATRED

out of job.

pissed.

die.

anyway. i hate the coming 23rd. ill be rotting at home. damn~

another song to stop my anger. beyond. xiang ni>>

http://www.haoting.com/htmusic/34424ht.htm

today is a monday. why doesnt seems like a monday laidat. my darling reached my home at about 10. ( he claimed that its 10), i was asleep. donno how to open the door gently is it? pull then turn the knob ma. wake my beautiful sleep. __


anyway. i think i spent the day veh meaningfully with him. he reach my place, then he looked at me sleep. then disturb me. -.- then we wake up and he fed me char tau kueh. then my mama gimme what soup la. got what black fungus one. whatever. then mama made glutinous rice for us! oooh~ my darling loved it. ate 2 of them. then we watch chicken little ( P version). sorry ar. its him who want to watch. i dont support P de. -.- anyway. he fell asleep halfway and tried to make me say what happen in the show when he slept. -.- then we went to his car, listen to 2 songs and get his cds. then we went to bath, =X hahahahahaha. so cute. then we lie on the bed, he played his cds. beyond rocks. *eeeee~ hmm. then we fall asleep together again. woke up, we go outside eat glutinous rice again. -.- then we go back to the room and talk. talk talk talk den suddenly i cried. why suddenly talk about the bustard? I WANNA SUE HIM!!! but his mama just pass away la hor. dont wanna exagerate the trouble. -.- he went downstairs to change his coupons. mama says got fatimah storlling at the carpark. better be careful. silent but deadly. ( my darling's falling asleep) anyway. i know he loves me. i love him can liao. =D


stop reading la. all craps. =X anyway. jessie went to sentosa. so jealous~ but i also dont wan go la. later the tsunami...


my darling's fat. really fat. now then i realise. he's sitting next to me now, and falling asleep. k la. i dont want write liao. let him orh orh liao. i very good hor? KISS ME! ( kirk: PUI!) ok lor. then dont kiss liao. who XI HAN ur kiss la. PUI!!!! i dont want liao! __


k la. i go orh orh liao. wan an. =D i miss jessie.

the handicapped toilets.



the moment i step inside. if there are cleaners sweeping the floor, mopping, they would give me the disgusted look on their faces. or should i say 'disagreement' faces? why do i wanna get into these toilets? cos they are much much MUCH cleaner than the normal toilets!


hey. if the handicaps can keep the toilets clean, or the CLEANERS can keep them clean, why cant we normal people keep the toilets and cubicles clean? one thing really pissed me off yesterday at the science is that when i walked into the cubicle, nothing's on the toilet seat. but on top of the seat, what did i saw man? shit! omg. someone's diarrhoea! OMG!


wtf is this man?


people's asses cant aim properly and shitted on top of the seat? or did they mistaken the cover as bowls? and there is NO papers. wah piang. what they expect us to use ar? tear off our clothes and wipe ar? wah lao weh! where are the cleaners sia? thought they are supposed to keep the toilets clean? luckily the shit doesnt produce any smell. i think they have been around for weeks! omg.


its the science centre somemore lor. where tourists, kids, people around singapore visits. and what is given to them? shitted bowls. dirty and wet floors. the cleaners are lazy i suppose? i dont think i wanna get into that particular toilet ever again! the handicapped toilet is locked. ok. they think their toilets are very clean. they think their toilets are extremely BIG. they think their toilets are big till the wheelchairs can be wheeled inside. -.- stupid thinking. open the handicap la. employ more cleaners la. make science centre a better place for people to come.


i'm going to give the award for the most cleanest toilet in singapore. which is.....





























MY HOUSE TOILET!!!!!


-.- yaya. lameshit. but its so true. i love my own toilet.


oh yes. i've forgotten all about the sanitary bins. women are disgusting fellas too. they leave their bloodied pads on top of the bin covers. when one steps onto the thing (i dunno what's that call) , the pad is either stuck to the bin, and the person cant open it, OR the pad just flew. FLEW i mean. wah~ superPAD~ why are woman like this man? worse, there's no sanitary bins in some shopping centres. eh. what they thinking? women dont have menses one ar? only those who have menopause then can go to the centres ar? CRAPS!


anyway. i hope the organisers will improve the 'beautiful' sight of the shopping centers. they are pissing me off. they stinks. EEE~

wah~ sobs sobs. why this time its so painful? cried for hours man. once its not pain, i can even jump around like mad woman. once it beginning to pain, i would just curl up like a shrivelled shrimp laidat lor. wah. i think its the 2 months of ice water, liquors and chocs. hais. but now not that painful liao neh. hahahaha. =P


anyway. my darling's gone to duty. =D sms-ing each other now. =D omg. my darling sleep half way and woke me up to take my medicine. omg. so tiring for him. thx laogong. i love you. =D now i think you can sleep all the way la hor? hehe. i miss you.


my brother's friend come. -.- haha. they cant use the net. i can! nanny nanny poo poo! anyway. my brother is kinda spoilt brat. what he wants at the age of 14, all he wants is branded goods. clothes, the jeans have to be from levis, the surfpants all from billabong. not saying he cant buy. but at the age of 14. whats the reason that he needs these stuffs? i got my first levis this year from my darling. =D i got my boardshorts this year from my mama. i'm 16 leh. this year then take. i think he's having a very good life. his parents spoilt him like hell. =.=


i'm really out of job. sian. its so early now. no one's online. hmm. my lips are cracking. i wanna go out! desperare. hais.


hey. you still got the guts to speak to me ar? hey. you liar. i already told you i hated liars. why did you act as one and made me hate you? nah nah. you deserves this. may god damn you. hais. you made me sad. made me so angry. made me so pissed. made me nearly kill you. made me do anything that is bad to you. but. YOU DESERVE THEM!! i hate you. you cheater. you bustard. hais. why did i got to know you in the first place? dont treasure this friendship. you wont have any other friends. bloody.


hmm. long time no intro songs liao hor? so. <> BEYOND. they rox. why did they split? hais. http://www.haoting.com/htmusic/34383ht.htm


anyway. this is my lesbian. --->

haha. went online just now before i went out. guess what wei chong told me? told me to hate jaime. haha. i always knew he hated her ma. so i dont really find it special. anyway. its all about penghwa. i mean. grace got her freedom. so i guess there's no reason why the people should prevent her from going out with penghwa? right? anyway. if grace is going out TOO much with her guy and neglected the girls, i think the girls should talk to her? instead of scolding the guy? haha. hmm. people have their freedom. so let it be girls. grace is always your friend. in her heart. =D so dont care about penghwa so much kies?


went to science centre. damn. went for nothing! NOTHING! the machine is not open. i went there just to play it. ( dont say i'm childish. -.-) anyway. they removed the mirror maze. then, we really have nothing to do. just walk around. looked at some puffer fish, marine lives. and the shocker chair. -.- damn. still abit too pissed to return to ssc again. hais. i wanna play!


my period came today! TODAY! 17.12.05! so. i shouldnt have worried to much. =)) i'm so happy. i'm so glad! i'm so happy. i'm so exhausted. -.- hmm.


my darling's going to work tml and its a sunday. he got his duty to do. and i'm so fucking bored at home tml. hais. but its his work. he gotta do it. =D i miss you.


hmm. i miss jessie.


i hate you. you better go to hell. i want you to die. die in front of me. better be i'm the one who kill you. you're better off DEAD. i really hate you. hate you to the core. so, you better go to hell. fuck you.

haha. i'm back. i didnt even know today is a FRIDAY. haha.


my brother wore my mickey slippers. damn~ he better prevent his beloved bala from stepping onto my slippers and making it spoil lor. i sure go kill him de lor. my beloved mickey. the bala be careful man. better mind what he do today man. i wont let him off if he did it. __


anyway. my darling's specs rox. damn NICE!


anyway. I HATE YOU. JUST FUCK OFF. I DONT WANNA SEE YOU. BLOODY. YOU SHOULD KNOW WHO YOU ARE. JUST GET OUT OF MY SIGHT YOU BUSTARD. (( nah nah~ its NOT my boyfriend. its YOU YOU YOU!!!!))


poof~ relaxed. jessie just asked me to go lot1 with her. buy things. -.- boring la. dont want go. anyway. i'm so freakin pissed. why the people didnt reply me man. damn. tonight wont be having blanket liao. -.- hais.


k la. also nothing to write liao. go play maple liao. cya lock. =DD


jessie being posted to MI!!!! woohoo! orbi. start school first. BLEH!


the KING opf the rabbits. woohoo. starring my darling!!!!! -.-

good afternoon. just woke up. just emailed to 2 companies to offer me jobs. hopefully they reply lar. hmm. slept at 2 today. MAPLING. maple is sooooooo fun man. too bad jessie cannot use the com. sobs. long time never chat with her online. haiyoh. jc is so stress lar. join me. =D


anyway. vote for xiaxue. remind alot of times liao. anyway. my darling's gone to work again. hais. got lots of things reminded me of him. =((


hmmx. lemme say a few words. time really flies. i'm pretty happy to be with you. this kinda special happiness is something i absolutely cant find in any of my ex-s. this kinda mutual trust, love and care are things that i cant find in them, not a little bits of them. i'm really in love with you. what was the feeling once i told you i love you? haha. you should know better? my friends all said that i'm still young, i have more choices outside. but i dont think i have the need to want the 'choices' outside? its quite weird for me, when we girls walk down the roads in teenagers-filled places, i wont look at them like what the other girls would. i'm just sick and tired of being treated like a ball for these youngsters. they are just some kiddy freaks, knowing nothing about love at all.


i wanna be with you no matter what happens. if you're sick, i wanna be the one next to you taking care of you. if you're unhappy, i wanna be the one hearing you confiding your troubles to me. i hated flirting. i hated how i treated you last times. just wanna say a BIG sorry. sometimes it just hurts so much just plainly looking at you when you're sad. your eyes seem to make me cry all the time. =(( but i still love you. hopefully you will manage to read this.


k la. i know you're going to cry liao right? dont touched. haha. just merely trying to say how i feel till now. =DD


anyway. seems like everybody has grown up. except for some la. hha. its 3.00pm. and my lips are cracking. damn.


hmm. so that time who isaw is not wee yeong. -.- haha. thought its him. jamming. but no. -.-


i miss you. later i'm going to get specs with my darling. orhcard. haha. his new specs. heeren. eyeplay. i miss you.


anyway. the storm is over. i love everybody. =D

why guys suck? to girls. guys are the most heart breaking arses. what do they do? GOOD question! they break hearts lor. making girls cry for them, thinking that ' wah. got girl girl cry for me leh. so good. so shiok! ' please guys or men. change your mindsets. i cant stand guys who think they are very popular among the girls, who think they are very shaui although they are NOT! these kinda guys make me PUKE. BLEH! there's this guy who asked me to be his biggodbrother. please man. stop being so childish. its either friends or no friends for me. and absolutely NO biggodbrothers for me. i had enough of them.its so stupid. damn. i hate people from irc. damn. i need a job.


ok. woke up liao. read newspapers and finded jobs liao. not my type. boo~ answered jessie's call liao. asked me if i wanna go her house to watch some videos. i cant man. sorry. hmm. actually to day i feel like going to orchard de california fitness for interveiw. hen wanna ask andre if he wanna come along with me anot. but he;s not online. so i assume he doesnt wanna go with me lor. then i decided not to go liao. anyway. its in orchard. a place where all the bad memories origined. so i dont wanna go liao. hais. so many things happened in one single bloody day. fine. even the day bully me. __ i hate slacking at home now. its so damn boring. what i wanna do now is to dance all my life. i cant stop hating the bookshop for ending me up like this. can i sue her? :X anyway. i dont plan to call her anymore. its a waste of phone bills. i know she is just another freaking liar. saying the cheque would come in in a few days. but now? waited for more than a week. where's the bloody cheque? damn. stop lying bitch. i hate bosses. they think they are so great to cheat their employees. go and die lar. but i really need the money urgently. i wanna buy a new phone. damn. think i shall just search for another job quickly. called the boutique. and what did they sae? ' sorry leh. you're too young ' -.- wasted my phone bills again. fcuk!


anyway. i made him knocked himself on the capboard last night. tickled him when he's almost dozed off. wahahaha~ but he pain la. sorry darling. =D


anyway. i'm thinking of you again. where are you. hmm. =DD


taken by my cybershot. he bought them for me. x))


my shopping bag. m-industrie.


er... sorry. but i love darling more. xD

i so sad. so damn sad. hais. whats happening to me. i'm just sad.

wah. long time no write. now writing.


ytd. went to install bazooka with my darling. his car la. not the gun. -.- anyway. took more than 7 bloody hours to put that thing into his car. about 3 plus, we went to bedok. not to eat la. concert! my darling's singing with his band! -black forest- . haha. dont anyhow think ar. actually we ALL anyhow think about the name la hor? x) anyway. his singing rocks. i think i saw wee yeong lor. he guitarist. =D so good~ anyway. i think among all the bands, i think my darling's one is the best. all other people dress code is like so ' ah gua' . all black, arbo is sleeveless top. so eeee~ his group is all casual. no dress code. =D haha. being a singer's gf feels so. . soooo. GOOD~ ^_^


anyway. then after the whole thing, we got back to the building. his car is not even ready after 3 whole hours! __ then i was like. so pissed. standing there waiting for him and his friends to get their cars done. and what really makes me really angry is that bloody simon. backstabber. anything just shoot in front of my face. dont backstanb me to my darling. you ar. PUI! :X


anyway. kinda bad mood last night. no water, no food until we step into the cinema. -.-""" we watched 'perhaps love' . damn nice! actually we planned to wacth chicken little. but dont wan. looks kiddy. then we wacthed that lor.


the movie talked about a guy, ( eh. wait. get a sandwich and coffee first. cushion also. your arse will hurt. the story is loooooong man. ) who met a girl in beijing, where the girl is grown la. then the girl is very wild one. one night ask him if she can go his house to bath. bath liao then suddenly she go sleep liao. sommore her teeth like fight one. =X hmm. then the girl told him she wanted to be a actress. she got lobang ma. then the guy told her he want to be a director. then dont know why the girl lost her memory. then she really became an actress. then the guy had been waiting for her return for 10 years. so long man~ then finally he got to act in a show where SHE is starred also. but when he said hi to her, she just replied ' we've never seen before' . which made him very sad and angry. then. he brought her back to beijing, trying to let her remember the past he and she were together. she manage to remember. but he had enough of her. he recorded in a tape, saying, ' last time you told me, the one who love you is YOURSELF. not me. all the while i've been an idiot. to wait for you to come back to me. then who knows after 10 long years, you're finally back. but you dont know me anymore. i've been a fool. now i know i've been loving someone i hated and despised.' well~ she cried after this. haha. ( who ask her so dao~) anyway. she went out to find him. didnt find him la. but he found her. but i think in the end they are not together liao. =)) nice story. long man. enjoyed? good. =D


anyway. he's out. out to make his car again. jasmine say he very good. got car. but he's like treating his car as his gf laidat lor. like me the second wife laidat. told me weekends all free, all for me. please lor. the fact is in front of your eyes already. last night. only about after 20 hours later then you have4 time for me. then saturday, you went to do your car also. sunday also. and made me waited like an idiot. and let your bloody friend backstab me. generation gap la hor? __ anyway. then today leh? tml you going to work again liao lor. then you have to wake up very early liao lor. then at night no energy to pei me liao lor? ok. i got it. if your treating your car as your dearest, please tell me la hor? dont make me like a fool to keep wanting you to pei me la hor? =(( anyway. i'm not jealous of a car. but ask yourself lor. you and friends meet up never mind de lor. whatever you promised me are all fake. fake. FAKE! damn~ i dont want to be angry with you. but i got to. that's why i sms you last night saying i hate you all man. really hate lor. you knew i hated waiting. but what you did? wow~ so good. my mood isnt good today also. so BACK OFF!!


anyway. i missed dance. why am i such an idiot. damn idiot. dance is my passion all thw while. then because of the FUCKING bookshop, i have to stop dancing! those who know me well, they know i wont stop dancing till i really really dont feel like it anymore. but i still wanna dance. i belong to the stage. i wanna prove to the others that i can do well in dance. because of a fuking job, made me so disappointed. so lost. been thinking. without dance, what am i? just a load of SHIT! i think i wanna enrol into attitude performing arts studio. really need to dance. i wanna get back to what i'm like. dont care how much is the fees. but i'm going to DANCE DANCE DANCE! tml is their exam liao. wish them luck. mist get distinction. =DD


anyway. jessie's back! i miss you!

hais. i'm so like. sad lor. hais. why must he lie and bluff me? bribe me ar? hais. i know its a hard time. but you said it was for me. so i listened to you. i trusted you. but you? made me lose trust in you. hais. what can i do to you? beat you up? scold you? your old enough to think of urself. to take care of yourself already. i'm not ur mama, keep nagging at you. hais. your going to kill yourself one day and leave me alone in this goddamn world. why must you like this? didnt know you hated me so much. hais. try to please me. but i think you havent reach that goal. hais. try to think of me please. i know smoking can make you burn time and make you feel good. but your health? think about it. and me. ME. what are you going to do about me? hais. i've told you everything and anything. but do you believe in whatever i said? hais. what i've told you are true facts. cant you just believe them just once? huh? what do you treat me as man? hais. im not angry or what. i just dislike you SMOKING. feel so. so. low class. like taking drugs so desprately. hais. why keep thinking of yourself? stop making yourself taking benefits which are BAD. hais. you think about it. hopefully you will read this. i need you. really need you. cant lose you. get it asshole?

te horlater going out with jessie! woohoo! finally i'm stepping onto the lot1 ground again! darling's going to jam again. final rehearsal i guess? hmm. anyway. what am i going to wear later? lot1 is not near nor far. what to wear. damn~ i think im buying more studs.


my holes are rotting. lalala~


eason rocks!


anyway. i miss lock. i bet she misses me also. =X she's mapling. why's everybody mapling.
whats so good about maple. haiyoh. i think i'll make another character. =))


anyway. shinchan very cute!


jamming. hmm.


meeting her at 3. he coming back at 4. no time management. damn~ i dont wanna leave him alone also. he so poor thing. but he also have to find his friends sometimes. not always me. haha. anyway. will be back before 6 later. hopefully will be able to see him at home? :))



hmm. anyway. the wai yee. really. i think i shouldnt trust her. she is not trustable de man. haha. anyway. its over liao. talk so much also will do nothing. =]


life goes on.


blah blah. anyway. i dont feel like working anymore. not feeling loss of confidence. is NOT INTERESTED anymore. so people, STOP TELLING ME GO WORK!! i dont feel like working liao. just feel like resting and slacking. dont care how much is the salary, i also wont work le. so tiring man. why everybody like put all the fault at me? i did NOTHING! sian~ i hate the society la. nbm. =] i'm still smiling.


hmm. whats the time now. 2 liao. stil gt 1 more hour. hmm. im so confused man. whatever the people want? haiyoh. :((


where's my darling. i need him man. orh man~


why the eason shi ting so difficult one. keep buffering. damn~


anyway. try to listen la hor? eason de 'dui bu qi xie xie' >>>

http://www.haoting.com/htmusic/111268ht.htm


anyway. nbcb. i'm damn so pissed. damn la. dont come near me people. =((

ooooh! the new mickey phone is coming to town! the Disney edition Dmobo handphone! the picture. >>>

im buying! buying! BUYING! so damn cute! $546 with two year-plan! im buying! so nice phone! woohoo!


anyway. i never go work liao. damn. stupid belinda. hire me then now sack me. want die ar?!


nvm. forgive her. forgiveness is the sweetest revenge. =))


anyway. who xi han her job. gots looads of chances for me. not as if without her i cannot live laidat. el oh el. bloody.


make me waste my time. skali raffles got call i also never answer the phone.


damn~ whose fault? BELINDA'S fault. haha. anyway. i feel like resting now. dont feel like working at the moment. dont worry people. im not abit sad la. =] jus pissed. some bloody woman gave me false hopes. nvm. =))


a world of backstabbers.


KANENABEHCHAOBYEBYE~


oops.


anyway. i'm jobless. just abit bored. lock told me go her house slack. woohoo.


anyway. there's a bastard. sms me something. something which is so er xin. just a msg to him.


' you horny you go fuck your mother. dont find innocent girls. you get me? dont want your mother, grandmother also can. sorry hor. trying to be a jerk, i wont be nice to you. '


haha.


anyway. kaisin kena cheated. zhanhe la. why he must laidat? at first keep telling her he wants to be with her. now? what he told her? he told her he want to stay as friends. eh. mister, stop hurting we girls can anot ar? i think your just a DESPO and wants girls at a short while then dont want liao lor. i bet you found someone prettier right? please lor. STOP TAKING WE GIRLS FOR GRANTED! if you dont mind, look at my allergics. guys who think they are very popular among the girls or to think alot of grils like him with this kinda attitude, please. all these simply TURN ME OFF! guys like to hurt girls heart. its their hobby. i dont understand. to kaisin dont be sad thou. there are better guys outside. why stick to this another bastard? ya? i think he suck. all this while he treat us so nice. i think he suck now. too bad. he make me feel this way. =))


anyway. this entry is long. all i can do now is to wait for the handphone to come out. then i will buy! hahahahaha!

new song~ not new la. eason de. k ge zhi wang. cantonese version. damn NICE! :))

http://www.haoting.com/htmusic/86869ht.htm



belinda is a siao lang kia. false hoper. backstabber world. damn~ a world of bitches. and please kindly fark off. (:

haha. im back again. never come in here write for long time liao. working ma. damn tiring lor. hais. stress. anyway. going work later. TIRED! i never plan to get up so early. the constructions downstairs are pissing me off. working early in the morning. waking up those people who are asleep. they never thought of people who are working in the night shift. they are still resting. never thought of them. haiyoh. i also the victim. i working till 8.30 lor. then never got the chance to sleep more. damn~

anyway. darling's gone to school. wont be meeting me go eat dinner liao. but fetching me later lor. hmm. i miss him. my legs hurt. my arm hurt.

saturday i'm needed in tan tock seng. jessie off that day. will be standing for her. sian. have to go all the way there. today irene will come to sub huiyi. hopefully wont be so stress today. boring day. standing there and walking around. hais. but i will JIAN ZI DAO DI! :))

anyway. i going bath liao. going work! bye bye! muahs muahs.

woohoo. i'm working! so tiring man. sometime alot of customers. sometimes even a ghost also dont have. the business is very good. haha. huiyi rox. i reached the place at 11.46. thats early. then i just got in earlier lor. put down my stuff and off i go! kids streaming in. of course we have to tend to them. hmm. there were also people bringing in drinks. they are not allowed. wahaha. anyway. there is this girl, looking about 21? huiyi told me she would come into the shop everyday at about 5 plus without fail, to read the mags there and to anyhow place them without fail. huiyi said she has been swallowing her cool ever since she came in. haha. poor girl. anyway.(:

is he angry with me ar? hmm. who cares. =P he want he talk to me. i cant always make the first move to do things. is he going to bring me to work later? who cares. =P he want he drive me go lor. is he going to fetch me from work later? who cares. =P he want he gimme a sms saying he will fetch me later lor. heehee. =D

oooh. someone's getting married! rick and people all got go. go for what. those people i also dunno who. chinese hew year also never even go their house to take angbaos. dont go. who cares about them. =PP

anyway. another song. feng by jay chou > >

http://www.haoting.com/htmusic/109893ht.htm

ok. said enough. going to work. =)) seeya.

psst! tml is our third month! =DD i love you darling. even if you are angry with me or not. i will still love you. hopefully u manage to read this entry. ^_^

i'm not a girl. not yet a woman. oh man~ i really dont like people to still treat me as a lil's girl. woohoo.

i'm going to work tml! so excited! anyway. i'm not that excited lar. just trying to stay out of the fact and go into the fact that i'm going to face some bangalas downstairs, awaiting for some flesh to look at and prey on. i'm coming home myself. and mind you. its MYSELF. i am brave, am i? woohoo. den i'll be at home, waiting for some one to arrive. nah~ i'll go sleep. i'll not wait. i've gotta WORK the next day too. am i ke lian? i'm not a baby anymore. i dont wanna be depend on others like a LEECH. anyway, it's kinda ming xian that he doesnt want me to go. then, i'll not go. i'll just guai guai, stick to my rules, stick to my work till the raffles calls me, then i'll switch to that place, which i'll be going to accept a longer working time. anyway, i wont be working any part time. all full time. dont regret when i dont have time for you people. anyway. my mood is damn bad now. pester me if you wanna get scoldings from me. DAMN~ ya. i'll think of you. AS IF~

hmm. tml de dinner break. i dont think i will be going anywhere bahx. staying inside the shop for sure then going home, to MAKAN! ALONE finally. i can breathe. hmm. i'm so annoyed. anyway. =D *smiles* i cant show him my blackened face. making sure he smiles at me and be happy everyday. wah. i very wei da hor? =))

my mama bought alot of clams for me! woohoo!

next song! SHE . bu xiang zhang da > >

http://www.haoting.com/htmusic/111342ht.htm


i'm so freakin' pissed .